Maturity.

Hey Rose, 

How is it going? Long time, no see...

Did you heard the news Rose?

December is here baby!

You know what that means?

It means, in 2 days, it's your anniversary! Wow you're old..

How old are you now? 4 right? 

Dah boleh lari-lari dah...

You know Rose,

Every December I wrote how much I change through out the year and how much suckness in each year and hope the next year will be better and treat me well... Well, 2010, you suck! Seriously suck....

But despite the suckiness, look at the bright side, they thought me to be mature.. 

Word of the year:

A lot of things had change...

My perspective on life is different now..

I used to be an optimist, I've become a realist now... 

You know what happen? Life.. Life happened..

And right now, life sucks..

Oh well, that's just my teenage mind speaking...

I just don't know why teenagers nowadays complain about how their life is complicated and life is not fair and everything in life is shit. Step in the shoes of an adult, step in the shoes of your parents, even though they have the money, you'll crap your pants to know what they are thinking, what have they been through...

Seperti pepatah Melayu, 'Mereka makan garam dulu sebelum kamu...'

Well, a lot of things had happened this year...

Things change every month, surprises every week, they shock you everyday...

Oh life... You really are something...

2010,

I shed so many tears in this year. I have some emotions after all. 

I took some risks, some of them are awesome.

I actually pay attention in some classes.

I ACTUALLY DID MY HOMEWORK! This, this is what I am most proud of this year :)

I lived all by myself for a month, and that really thought me why to spend your money wisely...

Broke my heart couple of times, well, not by a boy... 

Broken hearts really made you think you're lonely.

Loneliness is scary...

This thought me that the world does not revolve around you and some people just hate you or don't want you, no matter how hard you try...

Well, I'll be mature about it and keep moving forward.

Love....

This year, the 'love' part in my life is just REALLY funny... sigh...

I just love how hard people wants to see me to have a boyfriend.. HAHA..

It would be lovely, but I believe, if it's my time, a sign will tell me who date and what not.. 

I'm tired of falling for that person and then, I don't have the freaking guts to tell them how I freaking feel.. It is just tiresome.. What about people falling for me? Well, that would not be happening any time soon... 

I just hope for that guy in the future, yeah you! You must love me for who I am.. not who you want me to be..  I want you to love all these fats, this gap tooth, this lazy bum bum of mine.. And you, please, let me feel like I'm worth your while... :) 

BAHAHHA... 

I seriously can't say that to him.. That's just embarrassing.. I'm easily blushed XP

Hey you, Prince Charming, come faster with your shining armor and white horse ;)

I just read my December 2009 post;

Well dear Sarah 2009, you learn a LOT my dear.. It sucks, but it's worth it..

Well, since I hated December last year, but this year, I felt like December 2010 will bring me hope...

"If you choose hope, anything is possible..." Christopher Reeve once said...

Well, I hope things will get better, I hope everything happens for some reasonable explanations..

Love, Sarah Marzuki :)