Facebook on hold.

For some who don't know, I deactivate my facebook. 

It's weird isn't it? I was the one you always see on the online list, I'm like the facebook queen in my class, I think. Joyee could be too. I updated my status like 10 times a day, not including the links, videos and photos I've shared. 

I want to feel how to have some free time again and what did I do before internet was everywhere. How did I manage to amuse myself? 

So, it's the first day without facebook, I've completed my homework on MY OWN, which is rarely happen to me. I like this change. Like Uztazah Mazidah said; "Change must come from the inside." And I want to change. I want to be a better person, a better student and better hamba Allah. 

2010, I've mature a lot but I still have a lot to learn. I don't want to wait for every else to mature, I have to make my own changes. 

I've told most of the people I know, "I am NOT like EVERYBODY else." I hate to be compared to other people. I am an individual. I have my own talents, I have my own ways. I am not a robot. And I like to bend the rules a little bit. I'm not saying I break the rules, I followed them but add some a little twist. It's just me, and I'm like that. 

I just realized. 

I did talk about to find the real me. I wanted to search who is the hell I am. But I gave up and just go with flow, maybe I will find some answers. And I found some answers. And it help me a lot. I gain some confidence now. Thank you to all people who help me, I don't know who you are, but thank you.

My new favourite lyrics:

Every night I go to bed
And take a trip inside my head
And I wonder exactly what my purpose is
Do I live to see one hundred
Am I rich
Am I poor
What's the score
I don't wanna be suprised

I wanna take a journey to the end of my life
Cos I just wanna see what it's like
Am I loved
Am I hated
In your face
Or understated
How old will I be when I die
Do I turn out alright

Is my fate up to me
Or is it run by a computer
Will my kids go to school or stay at home
In the future
Is there peace
Is there war
What's the score
I don't wanna be suprised

I wanna take a journey to the end of my life
Cos I just wanna see what it's like
Am I loved
Am I hated
In your face
Or understated
How old will I be when I die
Do I turn out alright

I just wanna see what goes on
The chance to put it right before it goes wrong
Certain things I say that I regret
And erase them all
Erase them all
Save my friends so they don't get hurt
Get the mustard stain off my favourite shirt
Have more vision than a crystal ball
A crystal ball
A crystal ball

I don't wanna be suprised
I wanna take a journey to the end of my life
Cos I just wanna see what it's like
Am I loved
Am I hated
In your face
Or understated
How old will I be when I die
I wanna take a journey to the end of my life
Cos I just wanna see what it's like
Am I loved
Am I hated
In your face
Or understated
How old will I be when I die
I wanna take a journey to the end of my life
Cos I just wanna see what it's like
Am I loved
Am I hated
In your face
Or understated
How old will I be when I die
Do I turn out alright

-All Star Weekend, Journey to the End of my Life 

I love this song. Very meaningful.